Mood: Pissed off

I am extremely pissed off and it is probably inappropriate to express such annoyance on my public blog but I am really irritated by my sister's dance seniors. SAJC dance by the way. Do not assume that I am just completely biased against SAJC because I have friends from SAJC. Neither do you go about thinking I am just hating on dancers. I have really good friends from SAJC dance, reason why I went to the one 2 years back and the one this year. So i am not biased at all. I am just particularly annoyed at how 18 year olds think everybody owes them a favour and they should all do charity work for them. Sorry kids, but not all things are for free. In fact, time and effort equates to money. Welcome to the real world.

Reason for my annoyance: My sister was appointed as welfare head for her school dance CCA. To every normal CCA, welfare head do not exactly do much. They just make sure the first aid kit is there, somebody's birthday is coming up, etc. So yes, I guess giving her the Rapture Concert dvds to burn for anybody else who wants it is a relevant task for a welfare head. My sister however, is not much of a tech-savvy person. Hence, we got my boyfriend to help out. DO NOT PRESUME WE'RE TRYING TO EXTORT MONEY BECAUSE WE'RE LIKE TOGETHER OR SOMETHING! That I must point out really clearly. The only reason why I stated $10 because well, I don't know how to charge. I mean you get somebody to burn many copies of a particular concert it is usually that price right? Tell me if I'm wrong. I will admit I am wrong because this is the area I am really unsure about. I asked my sister to ask her friends how much are they willing to pay. Their reply: "can give free?" Seriously?!

Time and effort are extremely expensive. I mean I think you should appreciate how much my boyfriend has put into making sure the quality of the ultra huge video file, (which by the way is 3 huge files) is the same as the original copy and compressed it so that it can fit into 1 disc. I mean anybody would rather watch a video on 1 disc than 3 discs, which whoever the idiot who first burned it was not tech-savvy enough to compress it. (Are you sure you are a qualified video guy who can't do video editing? You even had some parts cut off. HUH?!) I am sincerely apologetic for even stating such a high price of $10 because I am not someone qualified to actually mark a price on items. But at the very least, with some basic manners, I think negotiating a price would have made the situation so much easier. By simply saying you want it free is as good as saying you do not appreciate the efforts made by the person who gave his time to convert/compress your dance video. Yes we can make do with the fancy cover and whatever. The disc he has to buy, the cover he has to buy (well duh he can't be giving you a cd wrapped in unwanted A4 paper right?). Now calculate that with the time and effort (don't forget electricity because he is using his com to burn for you all), I personally feel $5 is enough to cover the cost of the required equipments and be a token of "hey I appreciate your help. Thank you."

Best part of all these, my little sister is actually having her promotional examinations now and her seniors started texting her at about 1230am just now. SHE HAS A PAPER TOMORROW! SHE NEEDS SLEEP! ARE YOU PEOPLE REALLY THAT INCONSIDERATE?! Yes I am not the type to study and I probably don't give a fuck, but my sister does and you people shall not jeopardize her studies, YOU HEAR ME?! You people throw her so much more shit than a welfare head should be doing and yet you impose so much onto her. So much for "sorry to disturb you during your promos." FUCK YOU! And if any of you come across my blog, feel free to comment. I am disgusted by your incorrigible, ungrateful attitude, you bunch of ingrates. and I REPEAT! I am not being biased against anything because I have wonderful friends who have come out from SAJC/SA DANCE.

I am done ranting.

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

Slowly

Hey there all. I have been really tired lately. I have no idea why, but I just want to sleep all my days away. Maybe because I subconsciously feel that if I sleep the days and nights away, Babyboy would be back from Brunei real fast.

Have been spending alot of time with Yumi and Leon. They have been really nice to keep me company while Babyboy is away. Brought me out for supper, chilled by the pool at Junyi's place. I have been a little too quiet than usual and I guess they are not used to it. Leon gave me hug saying that he thought I needed one. It was nice to get a hug. But I really wish to get Baby's hug instead.

Been staying home pretty often that I bet my parents feel that it is pretty weird. I haven't actually have much time (or actually not much attention) to search and check out the latest collection of the blogshops I follow. I have been too busy working. oh gosh, I nearly forgot about homework. No issue, I'll get it done soon.

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

FML.

Helllooooo... Today I am gonna post a very sad post because I am very sad..

So anyway, Boyfriend is still away in Brunei and I am missing him fucking bad. and I failed my TP test. AND I AM VERY ANGRY AND UPSET AND I WANNA CRY COS BBDC IS PRACTICALLY SUCKING ALL MY MONEY! RAH!

ok rant done.

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

Enough with the dramas!

One thing I realized from my previous relationship with R was that I always blamed everybody else but not the person at fault, which everybody knew was him. I blamed every single one of those girls when all they simply did was fall in love(or so they thought.)

Sometimes, people forgive the ones they love so easily and yet hate people they don't know for like the rest of their lives. It's tiring. I've been through it, I got fucking tired, and I am now happy with my boyfriend. I tried to make life hell for the many girls R went for. Now 2 of them are my friends because they are honestly really nice girls but I didn't make the effort to know them. I just went "they fucking stole my guy I hate them." Basically, once you love somebody, you are blinded and you cannot judge rationally.

I am not trying to change anything here. I am just trying to bring across a point that sometimes, it isn't just one person's fault. It can be the involvement of many parties but just because you love one, he/she is forgiven easily and everybody else is added to your hate list. When that happens, you affect your mutual friends. How are they gonna invite people to their birthday parties when there are so many subgroups? Hold 10 different parties? Sponsor please?

Sigh I miss my babyboy alot. OI CHAN QING YUAN HURRY COME BACK LA! ):

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

Emptiness

Hey all, sorry for not being consistent in updating my blog. However you can be updated constantly by following me on instagram and twitter (username: partycar). Those are the 2 social networking sites that I am constantly on, especially with foursquare.

Today is Day 1 without Babyboy and I feel so weird without him. He has been spending every single day with me before he flew off to Brunei last night. He picked me up from school and even sent me to school one of the mornings. He fetched me from netball trainings, brought me out for lunch, and stayed over many many nights. Now my room feels really empty as I have to sleep alone ): Oh well, 2 weeks! Then my babyboy ORD LO!!!

I have been pretty busy with school and work as well. Working at New Zealand Natural has given me a slightly different perspective of life in some way or another. I learnt how to deal with customers, all their weird behaviors and comments :S hahaha. My colleagues are pretty awesome, especially Fiqah, Faza and Ibu(Fiqa). They are really an entertaining bunch of people. Fiqah even said I fell sick because Babyboy was going overseas :P

I have been studying also. Yes I know it's only my 2nd week of school, but I have to maintain my diligence to stay up there. First class honours ain't gonna come to me if I just think year 1 is gonna be a breeze. I have to keep my standards up there. Study from the very beginning and remain consistent. I will try to be consistent in blogging too. haha.

Btw, Trance Party at Avalon tomorrow. RSVP to be on my guestlist for free entry before 12am! Nicole Chen will be spinning for an hour. Everybody loves her la! hahaha. Okay gotta sleep. Driving lesson tomorrow in preparation for my driving test next Friday! woots!

To Raymond Chan:
Babyboy, I miss you alot! Come back home safe (:

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

School is starting!!

Hello everybody, it has been awhile since I've blogged/ranted here. Been really busy looking out for a job, preparing for my Grade 8 piano examination and preparing for school.

So last Tuesday I had my piano examination. Boy was it horrible. I started panicking the moment I got one of my scales wrong so everything just started to snowball. Sigh I think I won't be able to pass and I will have to continue practicing until the next examination period which would be March 2013.

After that, I had Econs preparatory class. Gosh it has been awhile since I sat in a lecture for 3 hours straight (minus the 15 mins break). It was not that hard to get accustomed to it actually. Baby came to pick me up from school! ^^ So fun waiting for him and then he came by with the car :P So after that it was birthday celebration with my girls for Pearl and Yumi. It was so much fun playing kinect and Wii with the girls. It was hilarious especially the dancing game. Haha I danced with Yumi, Pearl and Babyboy. It was super hilarious. I have so much fun with my nettie girls ^^

Yesterday I had Mathematics preparatory class. 3 hours and I was 50% lost. Apparently Mathematics and Economics are interlinked. There is like product function and whatever. Omg I couldn't catch up the moment I lost track of something that I had to talk to the girl on my right. Bumped into Cheryl Seow. Sigh yes I got not much friends /: I shall find some friends at training tomorrow ^^

Can't wait for my interview tomorrow at Paragon's New Zealand Natural :P And I have to book my revision driving lessons soon! Photo updates soon. I will post advertisements of blogshops collection soon. (: Also check out my tumblr for more up-to-date updates :D

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

Photo updates #2!

Hey all, I haven't exactly been posting much pictures of myself. Most of them has been poster's for Friday nights at Avalon by Code Society as well as the blogshops I am promoting. So here is a photo update of my life. (Not in chronological order btw. :P)

Brazilian Night

MARDI GRAS MASQUERADE BALL

Nicole Chen's Birthday(Avalon and Fullerton Bay)

TOUCH & TEASE NIGHT

Wet and Wild + Korean Night

Sister's Dance concert (SAJC RAPTURE 2012)

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah