Enough with the dramas!

One thing I realized from my previous relationship with R was that I always blamed everybody else but not the person at fault, which everybody knew was him. I blamed every single one of those girls when all they simply did was fall in love(or so they thought.)

Sometimes, people forgive the ones they love so easily and yet hate people they don't know for like the rest of their lives. It's tiring. I've been through it, I got fucking tired, and I am now happy with my boyfriend. I tried to make life hell for the many girls R went for. Now 2 of them are my friends because they are honestly really nice girls but I didn't make the effort to know them. I just went "they fucking stole my guy I hate them." Basically, once you love somebody, you are blinded and you cannot judge rationally.

I am not trying to change anything here. I am just trying to bring across a point that sometimes, it isn't just one person's fault. It can be the involvement of many parties but just because you love one, he/she is forgiven easily and everybody else is added to your hate list. When that happens, you affect your mutual friends. How are they gonna invite people to their birthday parties when there are so many subgroups? Hold 10 different parties? Sponsor please?

Sigh I miss my babyboy alot. OI CHAN QING YUAN HURRY COME BACK LA! ):

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

I'm gonna Marry The Night.

Honestly, if the Night was really a human, I would really marry him like what Lady Gaga sang. Don't you think it's such a serene environment to be in? With the night breeze gently brushing against your cheeks as the moon and stars shine down upon you.

A wish of mine is to escape to the countryside. The fields are never-ending, the mountain-snow are glistening in the sunlight, and when night falls, the stars shine so bright you get hypnotized. Just to escape the harsh reality of the city where everything is hustling and bustling. Rest is never enough because the moment you stop, you fall behind because everybody is rushing to climb far ahead.

I try to do things at a slower pace, but everyone else around me is rushing. I can't do my work in the office slowly because everything has a deadline, deadline, DEADLINE! It is honestly quite tiring for me but nobody actually has a choice, do they? Money don't fall from the sky. No matter how much people can try to convince you that money is the source of all evil, they still need the money. Those of strong faith that are often going on mission trips, different religions it may be, all live it up to they trust to give them funds for their trips. Funds = Money.

I wonder how the world would be like when everything just slows down. How would they feel? How would they react? Would they adapt easily, or will they throw a fit? I think I'll be the one who sits back and drinks her coffee. What about you? (:

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah

We are all the same.

Lotsa love,
Carmen Sarah